Pinkalicious!!

Just a few shots from our 2nd annual
Pinkalicious Party

Pink! Pink!! Pink!!!

So, it's been over 3 months since I have surfaced in the blogging world and for good reason. But here I am, about to pour my heart out to a web page that I'm not sure anyone really visits anymore. But to those of you listening, wondering why the disappearance, here I go.

For three months we've waited for the news about a possible job in Utah. The idea of moving home was startling at first, something we've wondered about since we came here almost 5 years ago. (Something I've day dreamed of during those tender months after the birth of my babies, or during a million other tender times.) The interview went well and we were told we would have answer in a week...which turned into a few weeks...which turned into 3 months.

3 MONTHS of thinking that your whole life is about to change any day.

Finally at the beginning of January we got the call we had been waiting for. We got the job. Salary and moving expenses were all negotiated. They told us the official offer letter would be coming in the morning. And so we celebrated. We were going home.

But the letter didn't come the next day, or the next week. And after 2 more weeks of waiting the phone call we had not been waiting for came. They gave the job away to someone else.

Crushed. Shocked. Confused. So very sad.

We went to the Lord, pled for understanding. Instead we got peace. Pled for help in surviving the fact that nothing was changing, no one was going home.

It has been a personal purifying journey. I don't think it's over. I don't feel like this story has resolution, or an ending, or that it even makes any sense to my heart. But I know a couple of things. And this is why I came out of my cave today to blog.

I know... that Heaven speaks to us. That there can be communication as real as anything tangible. That He speaks to me and doesn't lie.

I know... that there is only 1 way out of pain, and that is not anger, it is trust.

I also know... that if and when I fall, the Lord sends angels to catch me, always.